Chilling on the beach feeling the gritty sand between our feet while laying there gazing at the stars, listening to the ocean breathing softly at us. Free from school, parents pestering, from clusters of homework; freedom at last. From sunrise to sunset, whatever happen happens, no regret. Time awaits nobody, just enjoy it.
Today is the anniversary of my cousin Daylan’s death. Can’t believe it’s been 7 years?! I bet life would be so different if he were still here. I’ve come to realize I don’t need anything from anybody and if I want something I need to take the step forward and get it. I shouldn’t have to ask for something, it should be in the kindness of your heart and people forget that when you give, you get. I can’t wait to be in the midst of happiness again but until then I shall patiently wait.
I value my friendships; whether if we were tight in kindergarten or senior year. If I see you around or run into you, I feel that out of respect you show interest in the person and ask how they are, their family, etc. Today made me realize who my friends are. I used to have a lot of close friends; ball team, cross country team, Sabis crew & my prep school people. People promise to stay in touch when they walk out of your life but 9/10 it doesn’t happen unless they really care about you. I shouldn’t take it into offense because life goes on with or without you but when I see you around a simple ‘hey’ is acceptable especially if at one point y’all where tight and nothing went wrong. I was really taken aback today and I was mad at myself that it got to me so much but I realized that people change. The friends that matter are the ones that when you link back up still act the same as if nothing happened. All other “friends” aren’t worth you reaching out.